Dyer to Tarver, April 14, 1919

Dyer to Tarver, April 14, 1919

Westley Dyer

4/14/1919

Correspondence

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Miss Elizabeth Tarver: Your most surprising letter was received. I was indeed shocked when I found it was from you. I didnt expect to ever hear from you again after I had failed to get to see you last Sunday as was planned. I was at the place desinated, the YMCA from eleven until thirty past twelve. I waited and eagerly waited, but could not get a call as was promised by you. I then came to the point of conclusion wheras it was one of those dissappointments. I also asked Mr. Brynt which was on the desk had there been a call for me, and was told that no one had called. I then feeling outwitted and forlorn, taken a walk, trying to forget, but it peirced my heart so I could scarcesly breathe. For I had planned so much for our enjoyment before I left from over seas. That is includeing you and myself, but fate gotten the upper hand. Elizabeth, I met you of course while being in the services, not haveing much of a personal talk with you, nor any social outing with you. Our acquantiance, has been quite an adventure. It may be that I donot understand you. And again I may have been a little too foolish in my action towards you. If I could only forget our past it would be all over with. I hope you will not find any difficult in understanding this message and my point of view. For I wish to be understood therefore I am frank explisit. You ask me concerning my attitude towards you and the letter I will try and explain to the best of my ability. It was in France I learn to care so much for you, and treasured your letters, which I still have in my posession. I also written you several love letters. I donot know why that I did, for the simple reason I feel that it was quite embarassing on my part. And you know Elizabeth you are so very young. I really feel that I have burdened you with my corospondence, more than I have accomplished otherwise. Now I wish to be agreeable on all subjects, and pleasing at all times when I spoke of comeing up to see you, you seem to heasitate, and I told you I would wait and visit when I came back to Chicago, and it seemed to be immaterial as to whether I went and never came back, it seemed to be a disinterest you regardless to what I would say. In fact you didnot seem to get the situation. If it was such as you and being friends Elizabeth, that is sincere friends your pleasures should be mine and my pleasure yours. Now little girl I will leave tomorrow. It gives me much grief to not haven enertained you before my departure. I hope in some one else you will find consolence. I will send you my picture because I promised it to you and I have yours. Donot guess I will have time to get them out as they will not be ready and I am leaving Wednesday. If there be any time since our corrospondence I have been other than a gentleman to you, I wish to apologize with the utmost depths of my unpeaceful heart. I will say that I regret very much that I did not get to see you last Sunday. I donot know just who is to blame. However I was very much dissapointed. You have my best wishes as to social activities that you may partake. When you are out in your higest gaiety, in your joys, and pleasures remember one who tried, one who cared, one who idolized a little girl who did not understand him. Im leaving tommorrow on 9 oclock train if that interests you, will return back to Chciago with in a week. Give Mrs. Tarver my regards and also give Miss Gussie my best of wishes please. Allow me to thank you for your supriseing and unexpected message. I hope that I have been clear in my statements. Wishing you much happiness, hope you will find the contents of this message explisit. I bid you adieu Westley